My most terrifying nightmare is also my darkest erotic dream.

Iím standing by the window when he enters the room. Heís tall, dark, and devastatingly handsome. He takes me in his arms. I can feel the heat radiating from his skin, and my breasts press firmly against his impossibly muscular chest. He guides my arms up and over his broad shoulders as our lips meet in what quickly becomes a deep sensual kiss that seems to go on forever as his demanding lips envelop mine. In that timeless moment, I was his, to do with as he wished. Sadly, I didnít realize until it was too late what he would demand of me.

Taking a handful of my hair, he pulls my head slowly back until our eyes meet. His dark eyes, seemingly bottomless pools, threaten to consume my soul as I find it impossible to look away. The knife, when it comes, is a complete surprise, slipping its blade hilt deep into my belly in a single soft thrust. Unable to look away, I see the look of cruel satisfaction in his eyes as he slowly twists that deadly blade within my guts, the look of erotic bliss on my face quickly replaced by one of agonizing torment. My arms still up on his shoulders, and staring helplessly into his eyes, I feel the hot wetness of my blood soaking the front of my bodysuit and starting to run down my nylon-clad thighs as he brutally continues to twist that blade inside me.

The agony is overwhelming, and looking into his eyes, I know Iím dying. That my obscenely painful death has no meaning other than for his diabolically cruel amusement as he continues to twist that blade deep within my guts. Staring up into his cold dark eyes, I desperately hold onto his shoulders as I whisper in his ear, ďThank you,Ē before slowly sinking to my knees and collapsing onto my side in the steadily growing pool of blood. Lying on the floor, I stare into his eyes, wishing to say something more profound in my final moments, but nothing comes to mind as the darkness finally claims me.

This is always when I awake in the middle of the night, my most terrifying nightmare, my darkest erotic dream. And in my dreams, no mercy expected, and honestly, no mercy desired.